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choosing love and happiness

Recently I was selected to join a group called The Sunshine Club. It is a space dedicated to positivity, self-love and equality, despite what challenges the universe may throw us. As silly as it may seem, I love taking the time to look for the good in things (or, as Pollyanna calls it, The Glad Game), for taking selfies and appreciating my friends and my beauty, and just for sharing a bit more love in the world.

This group was initiated by the lovely Prim, a teenager from the Philippines with a dazzling smile and a penchant for dogs and other soft, cute things. Although the group is only just starting,  everyone’s positivity and love for each other and the world is so present and overwhelmingly inspiring.

I feel like we can move mountains.

 

 

Maddy xxx

thoughts on drinking culture and alcoholism

It might sound weird and/or sad, but there’s something so comforting about talking to other kids of alcoholics.

In a culture where it’s so normal to drink to forget, get completely wasted for fun, or even just have a few alcoholic beverages after work to unwind, it’s reassuring and validating to meet others who get agitated around those (especially loved ones) who drink, and who feel that intense fear when those people slur and sway as they slip from tipsy to drunk. You can’t tell whether they’re going to keep to themselves and become dazed and sleepy, or if they’re going to turn on you, with their disorientation making them link together your faults, and confuse real events with what they make up.

You can connect with these other kids as you recall nights of walking on egg shells around your parent(s), staying up late in your room until you’re certain they’re asleep, worried they’ll barge in, drag you out of bed and start yelling at you.

I’m not denying that alcohol can be fun for some, but it is a drug. It shouldn’t be so normalised.

For those who have had similar experiences to what I have, or simply don’t like drinking, enjoy your tea/water/juice/whatever non-alcoholic beverages you love, appreciate the fact that you can get hyped about life or connect with friends without being intoxicated, and be grateful that rarely will late-night clubbing be your scene, and you can spend your weekend evenings nice and relaxed in the comfort of your own home.

 

 

Maddy xxx

pyjama dance party

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To put yourself in a good mood that lasts the whole day, I strongly recommend pyjama dance parties. Get up, let the sun shine in your room, and dance and sing along to your favourite music.

I thought I’d make a little playlist of some of my favourite pyjama dance party songs!

Walking on Sunshine // Aly & AJ
Dancing Queen // Mamma Mia Movie Soundtrack
I Got Nerve // Hannah Montana
Why Not // Hilary Duff
ABC // The Jackson 5
Love Myself // Hailee Steinfeld
Shout Out to my Ex // Little Mix
Mmmbop // Hanson
Bring it all Back // S Club 7
Elle Me Dit // Mika
C’est la Vie // B*Witched
Every Single Night // Computer Games

 

 

Maddy xxx

holy wow melt-in-your-mouth mug cake

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Sometimes, you just gotta have cake. But there are some days when you don’t feel up for eating a whole cake, a la Bruce Bogtrotter from Matilda, and on those days, you need a mug cake. This is the fudgiest, gooiest, most scrumptious cake I’ve ever had, and would love to share it with you.

  • 3 tbsp plain flour
  • 2 tbsp cocoa powder
  • 2 tbsp brown sugar
  • 1/4 tsp baking powder
  • 1 row of Sweet Williams original chocolate, broken into small pieces
  • 1 tsp vanilla extract
  • 2 tsp Nesquik (or equivalent chocolate powder)
  • 1 tbsp water
  • 3 tbsp soy milk
  • 1 tbsp canola oil
  • 1.5 tbsp peanut butter

In a medium-large mug, mix together the dry ingredients, ensuring no clumps of flour.

Add in the chocolate pieces.

Mix in the wet ingredients (leave canola oil for last). Mix in 1 tbsp peanut butter.

Dollop 1/2 tbsp peanut butter on top.

Microwave on high for approximately 1 minute (less if you want extra gooey).

Devour the deliciousness!!!!

 

 

Maddy xxx

high school nostalgia

 

 

I never ever thought that I’d say this, but I miss high school. Or, at the very least, I’m developing a sense of nostalgic longing and thinking about the rose-tinted memories of my teenage years. Even though I’m highly introverted, I miss the presence of people I am close to on an almost daily basis. I miss when spending a fortnight without seeing my friends was one of the hardest things to deal with. I miss becoming fluent in foreign languages and dreaming of exploring the world.

When I’d get into deep depressive spells where I wanted to claw my skin off, I knew that the loneliness would only last until 8am (at the latest) the following day. I never got close to isolating as much as I do now.

I know that the people I’ve kept in my life are those most important to me, but I miss the others who looked out for me. I miss that feeling of a misfit family.

 

 

Maddy xxx

autumn favourites

Hello, everyone who may see this!

I didn’t forget about  this blog per say, but the world has been a bit hectic and, overtime, became less of a priority than it once was. However, I find that creativity and sharing ideas are hugely beneficial things for me, so I definitely don’t want to let this go. To ease back into this, I thought I’d do a favourites post for the past season.

  • Seeking professional help
    My brain has a history of not being the greatest, and this has ramped up lately due to lots of lovely past trauma and stuff. Autumn has been a lot of talking to counsellors, and just recently I applied for specialised treatment, so I’m heading in the right direction.
  • Watercolour painting
    There’s something so calming about it. I’ve taken to sitting in the sunshine with my cat and making rainbows and other splashes of colour. It kind of reminds me of the opening to the old Beatrix Potter show. (Here’s a link if you don’t know what I mean, or want to reminisce in its glory.)
  • Harry Potter and the Sacred Text
    This is a weekly podcast by Vanessa, Casper and Ariana, three Harvard students who have decide to treat the series as a sacred text (like the Bible, for example). Each episode unpacks a chapter through the lens of a particular theme, such as love, disappointment, loneliness, or friendship. Casper and Vanessa are the co-hosts, and I absolutely love how light-hearted and witty they are, but also how they’ve been so insightful and open with their genuine thoughts and feelings. It has definitely enhanced my love and appreciation for Harry Potter. (You can find out more and listen to the podcasts here.)
  • Libraries and bookshops
    My boyfriend and I are your typical poor uni students, so lately we’ve been spending dates at bookshops and libraries. I easily get overwhelmed and worked up in situations where there’s a lot of sensory input, so they’ve been perfect for us. We can read hilarious books, learn new things, look at recipe books for meal inspiration, and often there are small children toddling around, so we get to make new friends.
  • Printable calendars
    At my old house, I was allowed to stick things on my walls, so I had monthly and yearly calendars, to-do lists, and schedules everywhere. Sadly, I’ve had to limit myself to a pinboard, so I’ve often felt less organised. Recently, I discovered these gorgeous printable calendars from Shining Mom and they have helped a lot! I love the colour they add, and I feel much more in control now that I can see my plans for the month ahead.

 

 

Maddy xxx

earth day 2017

 

Today, April 22, is Earth Day. It marks the anniversary of the birth of the modern environmental movement in 1970, and is a time for appreciating the beauty of our Earth and how it supports us, but also, more importantly, how we have been destroying the planet and need to do all that we can to reverse this damage.

The Earth is 4.6 billion years old. Scaling to 46 years, humans have been here 4 hours, the industrial revolution began 1 minute ago, and in that time we’ve destroyed more than half the world’s forests.

– Greenpeace

Ways to help the Earth

  • Eat less (or, preferably, no) animal products – approximately 4800 gallons of water are needed to produce 1kg of meat. Similarly, 1 gallon of milk uses 144 gallons of water. The animal agriculture industry causes deforestation (much of the Amazon is gone as a result), pollution, and emits a greater amount of greenhouse gases than our transport systems.
  • Recycle and compost.
  • Drive less – If you can stay off the road just two days a week, you’ll reduce greenhouse gas emissions by an average of 1,590 pounds per year.
  • Turn off lights when you’re not in the room and unplug appliances when you’re not using them.

 

 

Maddy xxx